I am literally in a living hell!!!! Yesterday’s visit to Babycat was so traumatic. I can’t bear to see animals suffering or in pain and my poor little baby is so sick. I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m walking round like a zombie in between working and visiting her. I can’t focus on anything properly. It’s best that I keep busy but my head is just all over the place. The other night it got to 9.30pm and I realised I hadn’t eaten all day and had no food in the house. So I rushed up to my local kebab shop and grabbed a portion of cheesy chips. I got them home (by now it’s 10pm and I’m STARVING) and popped them in the microwave to melt the cheese a little and as I carried them back to the table, I tripped and dropped them cheese-down on the floor. FML……. This one thing sums up my life at the moment. All I could do was laugh. It was laugh or cry at that moment and I knew if I started crying I wouldn’t stop.

So yesterday Babycat’s temperature had come back down to normal but she looked worse than ever. She was so lethargic and all she wanted to do was sleep on me. She wouldn’t eat at all. When I left, the vet called me to say that she had just been sick and the vet said she was really worried about her. There was also some cat litter in her sick which suggests she’s been eating cat litter??!!!! Anyway, I felt horrendous last night but I had agreed last week to