This is the hardest blog I’ve ever had to write. I have split up with Wayne. And before any of you start thinking “oh she can’t keep a man” (because that gets thrown around WAY too much towards women who aren’t married and settled down at my age), allow me to explain that it was ME who ended it and for good reason. I know my love life has always been turbulent and that’s one of the reasons I stayed single for so long. I didn’t trust myself to choose a good one anymore. Even though I’m not really in the limelight anymore, most people of a certain age still know my name and most guys I’ve been with still get excited over the fact that I’m THE Jodie Marsh. Over the last 15 years or so I’ve either had guys wanting to get with me because of my tiny bit of fame or because they just thought I was a catch, as in; I have a lovely home, money to do what I want (mostly spent on looking after them) and an exciting life (as you know I’m always up to something!). They love the lifestyle and all I have to offer. For all my money, fame and success (or whatever they choose to see), I am still just a normal woman who likes things like cooking and dog walks and who lives a very grounded and lovely life away from the spotlight. Put simply, I’m quite a cool chick. And that’s not me being big-headed; it’s a fact. I have found the perfect balance between enjoying the perks of being a little bit famous and of living a normal but exciting life with the best of what I can afford. When I met Wayne I thought he was literally ME but in male form. He loved all the same things I did and we had so much in common. We talked for hours about life, music, films, events, education, our wild pasts and the fact that we both wanted a normal but successful life now. I honestly thought he was perfect and The One for me. Sadly a chain of events has happened that has led to me opening my eyes and seeing things for how they really are and that he is not in fact even close to being the one for me. Plus something unforgivable happened the other night and being a strong woman (and one who knows her own worth) I knew it needed to end immediately. I want this blog to be empowering to not just women but men too who maybe think there is something wrong with them, that they are “unlovable”, those who can’t seem to find love, those who always end up in shit relationships, those who get treated badly, those who are physically or mentally abused or controlled. I want to show you all that there is NOTHING wrong with you and that if it can happen to me then it can happen to anyone.